Friday, December 31, 2010


If sinners entice you, turn your back on the.
For he who finds me finds life
Commit ur actions to the Lord
My child be wise, keep your heart on the right path and do not talk to drunkards
Don't gaze at wine for in the end it bites like a poisonous snake

The Godly will trip seven times but they will get up again

My grace is sufficient for you.

I don't understand why I try to live such a Godly life if in the end I get the same result as one who lives immersed in the world. I sin no matter how hard I try so y not just add a few more if He forgives me anyways? He tells us to follow his rules but forgives us when we don't? I just feel like I've worked so hard when it turns out I don't have to. GAAAHHHHH I just don't get it. It may be my pride speaking but it's not fair that people who party every night can get the same gift as me. So why not just join them? That way I could have the best of both worlds

Wednesday, December 29, 2010

up and down but mostly up

I woke up this morning with a smile on my face knowing that it was going to be an amazing day. It did not disappoint. Hit the gym; eventho Im already so jacked I have to stay in top shape, sledding with BJ, Camden and Lauren!!!, shopped w mommy, and hung with school people for the first time in months. Today was soooooo good :) It had an unfortunate ending but aint nothing finna bring me down. So my flight to florida got canceled for tomorrow so now we dont get out till Saturday :( but now I get to go snowboarding tomorrow!!

Tuesday, December 28, 2010

mmmm sugar

I find myself praying for the same thing all the time. each time I pray it sounds better and better. Does that mean I'm doing it right and that He will hear and answer? NO. Paul tells us that we only need to pray for something once because our God hears all and will answer all our prayers in his time. It also doesn't help if it sounds nice or not. God hears the cries of our hearts not what comes from our mouths. Sugar coated prayers r nice but are they from the heart? My prayer tonight is that God will mend the broken, give life to the weary and peace to those carrying their own burdens.

Saturday, December 25, 2010

Hey dad I lost you

This mountain is tall and my strides are short
This is knew, I've never known the sort

Is there a top because the bottom is near
Where am I walking? You disappeared

My eyes are closed, am I forwards or back
Why can't I win and what do I lack

I dream of this prize to beautiful to speak
you seem so far and out of reach

You come in love but rarely do
Lets walk together, I'm here for you

Temptation to quite is creeping in
Why can't I give up? No matter what you win

Friday, December 24, 2010

blogging mood

It's humbling to think that my very best isn't good enough. I was listening to Hillsong last night and I was convicted. The song said "And at your cross I lay my burdens and at your feet where your love covers all I've done and now I walk with you Lord" I feel like I've let other things push God out of my thoughts. Then another song talked about all creation returning to him. Then I read in Crazy Love today, that said we should be obsessed with Him thinking about Him all the time. So I took a walk in the gorgeous snowfall. It was awesome to forget about my worries and walk with Him. God come and fill this heart and my my body be a temple for you.

Thursday, December 23, 2010

Sometimes I wonder and sometimes I know...I think

I really need to lay my burdens down at His cross and just walk with him.

I miss who I am.

The stillness with a splash of Hillsong is the best medicine.

So I keep praying for you, asking our God to enable you to live a life worthy of his call. May He give you the power to accomplish all the good things your faith prompts you to do. Then the name of the Lord our God will be honored because of the way you live. -2 Thess 1:11-12

Wednesday, December 22, 2010

You know, I've missed out of a huge part of high school going to TC and living in my house. I feel like I haven't learned the life lessons I need for college. I'm just really up tight and there is no doubt I get that from my mom.

Monday, December 20, 2010

Matthew 22

So I'm reading threw Matthew with a couple of guys and we r supposed to be on chapter 22. How hard is one chapter a day? Apparently too hard because I'm only on 17 haha I guess I have some reading to do :) Oh God how much does it take for us to be loved, for us to be saved. oh we all are birds stuck inside our cage, covered up with grace and we hide our sins behind our face.

Thursday, December 16, 2010


Usually the week before Christmas break goes super slow for me but this time I think it's safe to say that it has been the best week of school all year. Nothing like playing finger Hockey with Chawncy everyday and winning the badminton championship in gym class hahaha life is good. Just about everything is going my way. oh and RK is tomorrow!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Saturday, December 11, 2010

Just like the movies

After just about every movie my dad says "Good movie, the good guy wins and the guy gets the girl" I wish my life was like a movie. That'd be fab

Thursday, December 9, 2010


I hate texting
Sugar is the best thing in the world
I don't go anywhere or do anything without music playing
I am constantly thinking about snowboarding
idky the middle school chose John 10:10
Im so old! 19 in feb
Christmas is gunna be really different without my brothers home
School is my absolute least favorite place on earth
I really wish i could sleep in but i naturally wake up before 830
I love when I'm home alone
I have another blog nobody knows about
I feel like I havent been fully happy for a really long time
I'm really thinking of becoming a pastor or a yg leader
I'm really really bad at reading and typing
I rarely stress out so i dont understand people that wont shut up about their problems
I dont get much hw so i have a lot of time to think which can be a good or bad thing

Saturday, December 4, 2010


So yeah I feel convicted. I felt like God was telling me to love. So I read 1 Corinthians 13. The thing that stuck out to me was that Love keeps no records of wrongs. Something that's hard for me is to forgive. And on a lighter note, I say I hate a lot of things and I'm sure most if not all of you can list off at least 5 things I don't like. God is calling me to love. If I have the whole world at my finger tips but do not love, I'm nothing. I like when God tells me I'm wrong for some reason.

Friday, December 3, 2010

I totally understand why some people don't believe in a loving God but this God I serve has made himself so real in my life I can't help but love him back. Sometimes I hear Him threw music or the Bible or my friends or...ect. The point is that God is always there if you look for Him.