not quite there

So I know some are already out while others are right around the corner but I'm stuck here for a few more weeks so shut up! haha jk but for real, I'm super pumped for summer and reconnecting with my church friends :)

So my mom went to the doctors office. I guess she found something and the doctor told her the only reason she would have it is if it was cancer. Thanks not fun. Well she had to have surgery and somehow she beat the odds. They didn't find anything but this is the second time this year she has had a cancer scare. Obviously scares are better than it being serious but still, she has had her fair share of cancer and cancer scares.

I is who I is who I is

I guess I’m writing this because I don’t know if I should be proud of myself or if it is to be expected. Drinking was always a big deal to me and still is, which explains why I’m writing this. I’m 20 now and only have a year before I can legally drink. I don’t know how serious underaged drinking is, spiritually and socially. And I don’t know why it is such a dig deal to me when God sees it the same as lying to skip class. I think it is because even though God doesn’t have a hierarchy of sins, people do. If I drank and then tried to talk to someone about my faith they wouldn’t take me seriously. If I took an answer off a friends assignment and then talked to someone about Christ, I think they would be fine. I also made a promise to God, my friends, my family, my school and myself that I wouldn’t drink; it’s important for me to keep my promises. So all this said, I am not drinking until I am 21 because...

1. I made a promise
2. It is one way I show my love for my God
3. It tastes bad
4. It helps me witness
5. I’m proud of who I am
6. To show that it’s possible
7. It empowers me
8. To break the social stereotype
9. To not be a hypocrite when I tell my kids not to drink
10. To set an example for anyone that might look up to me
11. To honestly check the “no” box when applying for CampCow staff

ps. It’s easy for me to say no because I’m rarely around it.

My grandma died yesterday. I'm pretty neutral about it

My mom has a good chance of having cancer. She is having surgery a week form today and will find out then. Keep her in your prayers and I'll let u guys know what's up.

God is your judge, not people. Live accordingly.

Skit Guys - God's Chisel

I feel like I'm doing really well spiritually right now which kinda scares me. I have this feeling that God is preparing me for something...something not so fun. God doesn't make bad things happen, he gives us strength to get thru them. Thru our weakness, people will see how strong the God we serve really is.