Not Happy

I knew it was going to be hard coming into the soccer season this year. My best friends and I would be split up between the varsity and the junior varsity teams. Unfortunately I found myself on the junior varsity side of things and it is killing me! My cousin is the couch and he had to tell me I didn't make the varsity team. That was incredibly embarrassing. The problem is that I was sick during tryouts and our formation only plays one forward which is what it am. That obviously hurts my chances. So while some of my friends are getting all the luxury of varsity, I'm stuck down on jv with my 2 other friends eating their dust. I am hurt and embarrassed but trying to be on the upside. There is still at chance I can be moved up after two weeks if they feel like I have what it takes. So I will give it what I got and pray that I am understanding of what the outcome is.

I'm all packed and looking forward to college life again. I go back tmrw morning to start soccer try-outs. I'm pumped. Just one problem popped up however; I woke up this morning with the flu. Pray I get better before I have to lace up first thing Saturday morning. If I don't feel better, I am going to be in some serious doodoo.

Mold me into something you can fill. And fill me with something real.

Right now I feel like being molded into a shopping bag, or a car to fill with crazy friends.

But Lord maybe a better idea is to let you mold me into a sanctuary, where your presence can be felt.

I have a few quick things to say

I absolutely adore my friends at home. I wish I could see them a lot more though. It is also hard because my friends are in like 3 or 4 different fiend groups. I also love my friends at Calvin and cannot wait until I get to go back :)

Unrelated to that, Matthew 6:24 tells us we can't serve God and money because we will end up loving one and hating the other. Guess which one usually gets the shaft in my life?

Of all the amazing qualities God possesses, I think my favorite is his ability to forgive. That's my favorite because it is one category I fall incredibly short in. I"m moved when I think that God is willing to forgive me for all the ways that I fail him, but I have the hardest time forgiving my friend for something stupid and petty. Lord, your forgiveness completely overwhelms me.
That said, what is your favorite quality of God's? Why?

easier said than done

So I recently got back from camp COW and it was awesome; tiring but awesome. The whole week was about going from luke warm Christians and tuning into believers on fire for Christ. We had a lot of cool speakers and the cabin time was good but there was something missing. The sunday after camp, I went to 2HC and Dave G was speaking about the exact same idea. The thing that was missing was not "what are we supposed to be?" but rather "what steps can we take to achieve that?". This is where I need your help. I always want to do more for Christ but what? What steps can we all take to become believers on fire for Christ? I think we all know what we are supposed to be, but we don't know exactly how to get there.

Into the Hands of the Potter

One of my favorite prayers is to ask God to soften my heart and to mold me into who he needs me to be. That's a good prayer. The problem is once I'm done, I go through my day like nothing happened; maybe because nothing did actually happen. I'm heartfelt in my prayer but in reality, I'm still not ready for God to come and knock down the walls I built up. Instead of letting God mold us, we mold him into the god we need for the day.
The Hebrews called out to God for help. He lead them out of Egypt by splitting water, leading them with a cloud and giving them food and water, yet they still made a cow out of gold. As humans we think we need a god that's tangible, so we make one or mold ours into the god we need. We take advantage of God's love and forget that we need to serve Him and live for Him.
I challenge you to see God for who He is, thank Him for His love, and be open with Him. Then we can start to let down our walls.